New Goal?

I have been hearing a lot about people going on mission trips, leaving their comfort zones, and making a difference in the world.  It has got me thinking about something.  At the moment, I am out of my comfort zone.  I am on the other side of the world. Yet, am I making a differnce? 


This is something that has really been on my mind lately.  I want to do some research on small mission trips and see what comes up.  Maybe take some leave and go to a deprived area of the world and help in anyway I can.  A friend asked me last night if I could go 24 hours without technology.  I explained that when I was a kid I would go camping over weekends and sometimes for a week at a time.  I was then asked if I could go 6 weeks...  I really don't know if I could.  Thinking on that, I realized how tech based my life is.  I enjoy tv, video games, and movies just like the next young adult but does my life really need to revolve around it?  Why am I not out making music instead of listening to it?  Why am I not learning how cook instead of teaching my video game character how to cook? 


I was watching the movie Lord of the Rings yesterday.  What a great movie but its an even better book.  I think it is time to pick up a book and let my imagination take over.  This is my new goal in life.  To do active things that I will remember for years to come.

My Last Nerve

Recently I have been noticing how quick people are to judge others.  Everyone has to throw in there thought on every situation because everyone has to be right.  Within the last couple of weeks I have witnessed someone telling someone else how they go to a Bible study everyday of the week.  This person was wording the conversation in a way that was lifting themselves up, like they were better then others because of it.  This really got on my nerves because if I went to a Bible study everyday of the week, I wouldn't be focused on everything I am learning.  My brain takes time to process things.  I focus on a lesson and meditate on it for a few days. Why did this person have to take all the glory for themselves when glory always belongs to God?  This made me frustrated in a way I haven't been in a while.


Another situation was a person telling me to my face that I was not giving enough money to the church.  I was absolutely shocked because I don't tell anyone how much I give.  That is between me and God.  This person confronted me and told me that they don't make as much as me yet they have never seen me give as much as them.  This story hit a nerve so deep I can't even explain it.  I get to laugh at it now but at the moment I was actually angry with the person.


Lastly, I think I got on someones nerve last night while hanging out with some friends.  I was trying to help them with a very petty task and this person must have had a bad night because they blew up and started yelling at me.  I walked away in anger because all I was trying to do was help.  This made me realize (the next day) that you cannot be mad when other people voice their opinions, confront you on things they do not know, or when someone is having a bad day and blame it on you.  Don't let someones sin pull you into sin.  Instead, pray for these people. 


Within the last few weeks, I have realized that I have had an anger problem lately.  This is something I am going to have to work on and God will change.  To anyone reading this, I could use some prayer :)